As a child, I dreamt of turning 16. To me, that would be the biggest moment of my life. I would be able to drive, have my OWN car, have a boyfriend (maybe), and almost graduate from high school. Now that I am almost 20 years old, I look back at my youth and think, wow. I wish times could go back to the way they were before everything got complicated and life seemed to slow down. Now, life seems to fly by so fast and I am still in shock that I am almost 20. Honestly, I don’t want to turn 20. I wish that I could stay this age forever. Living on my own and taking care of expenses don’t scare me as much as physically growing old. I know those who are older than me say that I am still a child and that I should be thankful that I am not as old as they are. As I sit here to reflect on my life thus far, I continue to understand and realize how important my health is. Not only my physical health, but my emotional, psychological, and spiritual well-being are so important in maintaining a healthy and happy life. This year has been an amazing year and I am so grateful for all the blessings I have been given. I plan to make this upcoming year just as amazing. I wish to make the best of every moment– good or bad. I plan to laugh often and give back as much as possible. Be slow to anger and abundant in love. I hope to minister to others so that they should see God’s light wherever they may be and know that He loves them. I want to go to bed every night knowing that I am loved and that every day is a gift. I also wish to remind myself every second that I only have one life to live and that dwelling on the past will not help me to pave the way for a better future. I do need to reflect on my past mistakes; only so that I can learn from them. Worrying will bring nothing but harm to my health and optimism is key.
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